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I Have to Breathe, You Can't Take That From Me [Apr. 27th, 2009|11:11 am]
[Current Music |All-American Rejects]

I love the weekends anymore. They are always filled with field service and friends. My life has not been boring to say the least. I can only thank Jehovah for the friends that I have and have made over the course of a year. I can honestly say that god does answer prayers cause he has answered mine, even though it did take a while but, regardless it was answered and now I have so many friends that I can barely keep up with most of them. Which reminds me that I need to call a couple to see how they're doing and see if I can hook up with them soon.

Yesterday, I hung out with Danielle, Julie, Sydney along with Aaron at his house. I sent Aaron a poem that I wrote and he turned it into a song. He did a great job and I was really impressed what he done with it in a course of a half an hour. So, we recorded it. But, I really have a fear of singing in front of people. I don't think I'm a great singer. Actually, I know I am not. But, ya know I tried to combat being shy but it just didn't work. So, Aaron decided to hide me behind the treadmill and I actually felt way more comfortable that way. I know my friends were probably thinking I was being ridiculous but that is one thing that I hate doing. Singing in front of people. I immediately freeze and tense up and I can't stand being the object of attention so I really couldn't be myself per say. Even though I was really proud of myself during Cranium cause I really let loose. I think at that point I just didn't care. But, that's how I need to be. Its hard to get me out of my shell sometimes though. And I don't purposely try to stay separate from the crowed but, its just how I am. I know I can be a goof ball with no problem its just I have to feel comfortable. A lot of times I don't.

Its final, I'm in love with Dear and the Headlights and the singer Ian Metzger's voice. Everyone you should check them out.

Tomorrow I am going out in service with Carney's Point. 7-3 I believe. So, should be fun and interesting. And, this coming Saturday BAMBOOZLE! I still have to get in touch with Chloe to see if she will still be able to go. Can't wait, I want this week to go by very fast. And also be enjoyable at the same time.

Have a good day! :)
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Your Beauty Can't Be Covered Up by Insecurities [Apr. 25th, 2009|12:25 am]
[Current Music |Dear and the Headlights]

I love getting lost in music. Forgetting all your troubles and being in your own little world. That's all I have been doing lately. I have been posting a lot of lyrics that have been really been summing up how I've been feeling on my ninamalone.tumblr.com</url> check it out and follow me don't be a stranger.

I wish I could write out how I'm feeling in beautiful poetic ways. I can't seem to though. I don't think I'm a horrible song writer but I'm definitely not the best.
If music didn't exist...god...a world without music is like a world without love. The thought of it just makes me cringe.
I know I said this before a couple of times but I'm not the most savvy in the music industry. I actually probably would be considered a newbie to some. I don't have that "cred" that everyone talks about. Knowing all the bands that all people my age loved and I'm just now getting into them. But, I went through my pop-punk band stage with the bright neon colors and all. Don't get me wrong I still quite enjoy some of those bands at times. But, my music taste has changed so much over the past couple of months. I have been really trying hard to get into more older alternative bands plus they're better anyway. lol.

I said all of that to say that I just love the whole lyrical part about the bands that I've been listening to lately. I wish I could shut the world out completely and just zone out and have that world I dream about in my head which consist of colorful ponies and rainbows lol...I'm kidding...or am I? Whatever that stuff is way cool.
I have been really in a weird place lately. I'm not sure which way to turn with my life. I want to move out to a far away place where I think I will be better off. I like a guy that will never even look my way. My hair is growing out like a mom's hair cut(ugh). And I truly feel that I have to be the most boring person on the planet earth lol. I try guys I try. I am just myself: awkward, corney, naive, quiet/loud, outspoken Nina Malone.

Don't take pity. It's just me not you. I'm okay, I promise. I actually am happy.
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Let's Make This Perfectly Clear [Apr. 23rd, 2009|09:35 am]
[Current Music |Silversun Pickups]

This has been one tiring week.
I've been wanting to wake up earlier so I could eat and take my time getting ready in the morning instead of always rushing around making myself late cause I wasn't fully prepared.
Ringo has definitely been helping with this. Thanks to his whining in the morning to go outside it wakes me up and gets me moving.
But, last night it has been taking a bit of a toll on me but I'm sure I'll get use to it.

Tonight is the Flyers game! I'm so scared that they are going to lose. The Penguins are a really good team and Fluery their goalie is pretty awesome. So, will see what happens tonight. GO FLYERS!

Has anyone listened to Silversun Pickup's new album "Swoon" yet? It is amazing! If you have never heard of them please check them out. "Carnavus" was their first release and is such a great album. Their soo chill. I love listening to them when I'm driving, next to Minus The Bear.

I have a lot going on Friday-Sunday. Friday I work and going over Chloe's to hang out. Saturday work and field service then HOPEFULLY I will be checking out a car in Newark, DE. I hope I hope.
Sunday I'm not sure yet but I might be going to two meetings. Mine and Carney's Point. Let's see how this will all pan out.

It is beautiful outside, so I hope everyone takes advantage of this weather. As much as they can of course.

I have pictures I wanted to share!
...Theres No Secrets This YearCollapse )

I apologize if this was extremely boring.
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"Funny, Doug Funny." [Apr. 18th, 2009|12:00 am]
Nina Marie Malone

2.MY GANGSTA NAME: (First 3 letters of real name plus "izzle").

3.MY DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal).

4.MY SOAP OPERA NAME: (your middle name & street you live on/or neighborhood if street is a #).
Marie Whig Lane(ew)

5.MY STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name).

6.MY SUPERHERO/CRIMINAL NAME: (your 2nd favorite color and favorite drink).
Black Coffee

7.MY IRAQNAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your last name, 2nd letter of your mom's maiden name, 3rd letter of your dad's name, 1st letter of a sibling's first name, and last letter of your mom's first name).

8.MY WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (parents' middle names).
Marie Michael

9.MY GOTH NAME: (black and the name of one of your pets).
Black Ringo

10. MY HOOD NAME: (first 3 letters of your first name, then add "iqua").
Now copy, paste and send on to all your crazy friends. Send it back to me and make me LAUGH!
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Can You Hear Me? [Apr. 17th, 2009|11:08 pm]
[Current Music |The Status]

There is one reason why you should not wait numerous of days to post. Cause if you're like me, you'll be sitting here like..."uhh, what did I do over the past week again?"
So, yes, I am sitting here like "ummmmm" so irritating. But, anyway.

Watched the Flyers play sloppy tonight. Needless, to say they lost. There own fault. The Penguins are sharp though. Very professional looking and there goalie is awesome. Why am I praising Pittsburgh? Oh, cause they actually played a game.
Sorry, I'm a bit irritated at the moment.

Plans are up in the air for the weekend so I have no clue whats going on for this weekend. Hopefully, something exciting and fun....yup, I'll go with that.

I'm back to strictly drinking water again. It worked before it HAS to work again. I went back on my old skin regime that actually worked. My face freaked out on me but thats normal. It just needs to get use to the stuff and in two weeks my face should calm down.

I have pictures that I want/should be posting. But, I have to find my camera. Tonight, I'll post them in a separate post.

Guys, I am so sorry that this is the most pointless post. I cannot remember everything. Nothing exciting. Hope you guys have a good night.
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Up, Up and Away [Apr. 13th, 2009|10:54 pm]
[Current Music |Romance on a Rocketship]

I'm not gonna give it up until I'm holding you tight
You don't know it, but I know it's gonna be tonight
You know, you shine so bright
And oh, oh, oh
I can't sleep tonight

Pack your things
We'll skip this town
I'll pick you up when the sun goes down

I want to float away with you
Up, up, and away we'll go
I'll come in through your window

Darling, how does that sound?
Just gotta tell me, gotta, gotta tell me
Let me know what you think
Oh, please, just close your eyes
We'll be there before you think

Pack your things
We'll skip this town
I'll pick you up when the sun goes down

I want to float away with you
Up, up, and away we'll go
I'll come in through your window

I want to float away with you
Up, up, and away we'll go
I'll take you to the stars tonight
And then I'll take you home

Promise me you won't look down
It's nothiog you'd want to see
This romance on a rocketship
Is more than enough, more than enough for me

I want to float away with you
Up, up and away we'll go
I'll come in through your window
I want to float away with you
Up, up, and away we'll go
I'll take you to the stars tonight
And then I'll take you home
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Head in Hands [Apr. 11th, 2009|01:32 am]
[Current Music |Valencia]

Well, I've been saving my breath
For another year
I'm wasting my time
I'm coming clean to you
On how I'm always catching up

Yeah, I'm still chasing my heart down 95
It's a fucked up way to live your life
When you are stuck always catching up
So I'll come clean to you

Head in hands, I find
That I've been fighting the words
This just isn't worth my time
It's not a way to die
Suffocated by stress
My life is a mess
It's not right
Head in hands, we climb
Separated by fate
It got in the way of life
Of all the ways to die
Suffocated by stress
My head is a mess
It's not right

Yeah, I've been clearing my head
Trying to get some sleep
And all these overloaded thoughts
Crashed down on me
It seems that this is just not good enough
(Just not good enough)
So I'll come clean to you

Well, this is the calm before the storm
It's getting harder than it has before
Sometimes you've gotta walk in the rain
If you're dying to find what you're looking for
(Dying to find what you're looking for)

Head in hands, I find
That I've been fighting the words
This just isn't worth my time
It's not a way to die
Suffocated by stress
My life is a mess
It's not right
Head in hands, we climb
Separated by fate
It got in the way of life
Of all the ways to die
Suffocated by stress
My head is a mess
It's not right
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Love Can Take You Anywhere You Want [Apr. 10th, 2009|01:53 am]
[Current Music |Valencia]

Time is flying. Tomorrow is Friday! Crazy.

The Memorial was great. I had more appreciation for it this year than the past years. I think it's because a lot has happen to me over the past year and its amazing how much your view on things change due to some of the problems you have to face in life and how you handle them. The ministry helped me so much through all the craziness and that's all what Jesus was about: The preaching work. But, the brother who gave the talk did such an excellent job in explaining everything! It was so simple. Easy to understand for a non-Jehovah's Witness and also helps us as Jehovah's Witnesses to keep in mind why we do what we do. I nice reminder.
The bible reading made more sense also. I was reading it today(more like playing catch up from the day before) and it almost made me cry how Jesus was treated and still he "looked at the city and wept" for them. It just makes me want to be more like him, regardless what people say to me or do to me.

Saturday, I look forward to hanging out with Michael and Brenden! Two friends I don't get to hang out with often. So, were going bowling in Pennsaulken. I invited Noelle, Danielle and Julie to tag along, of course! I can't just not invite them. That is going to be one crazy day. Work, Service and Bowling in Pennsaulken :D

I have been on the lookout for cars cause my dad still hasn't found a decent truck. I think I found way more cars that I liked than trucks. So, he told me that if he doesn't find a decent truck in ten days then he will give me the money back and we will both look for a reliable car. With the emphasis on "reliable". Believe me it only takes one time for me to learn a lesson.

April has only been looking up. I can only thank Jehovah. March really knocked me around. My dad is doing all that he can to get out in service and most importantly making the meetings.
I told my dad everything Brother Bailey told me and he asked me some questions and asked if there was anything he could do to make things better and I said it would be nice if we had a family study on a regular basis,(this was the kicker) and I started to say that it would be nice if the family would start going to the meetings again and how I feel depressed when I got by myself. And I immediately start to cry. I couldn't hold it in. All my surpressed feelings poured out. I thought I was strong enough to go through it by myself but, there was something missing. And my dad has done more this past couple of weeks than hes done in the past couple of months and I couldn't be more grateful to have such a loving father where he will go to the Memorial even with having pheumonia. He has really shown me that he cares, I love him so much.
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Great Expectations [Apr. 5th, 2009|08:42 am]
[Current Music |The Gaslight Anthem]

It's funny how the night moves.
Humming a song from 1962.
We were always waiting...always waiting.
We were always waiting for something to happen."

It was such a beautiful day today! I ment to take a picture but, I forgot.
I got to talk to some really old friends on Saturday and being totally stupid and laughing about inside jokes. It was a lot of fun. It felt good to just let loose for a bit and just truly be myself. I always feel like I'm so uptight sometimes and thankfully I so didn't have to be that way with them. But! at the same time I don't believe we all would be hanging out much anytime soon. They're all caught up in there own lives and going every which way. While I still sit here and stay in New Jersey hoping and wishing I can leave soon. Very soon.

I made some really random twitter updates. Sorry to my best friends who thought I was drunk. lol. Yeah, we got that carried away. By the way, I WASN'T DRUNK! But, you guys do need to try this delicious shot called "Tooters" they look like test tubes. SO GOOD!

I saw the cutest thing today! I went out in service with Stephanie, Sister Reddick, Sister DeChalus, Tanya and Sister Wappels. And we had a great time. But, the cute thing was that while out in service there was this older couple(in there 50's at the most) just sitting on their porch reading magazines beside each other. And it really was a nice thing to see. Just witnessing that small moment(something they probably do with each other weekly) really gave me hope for the future. I mean, that may seem really stupid to someone else but, it really showed that marriage isn't about the sex. It's about having a lifelong friend. Someone to talk to about anything thats on your mind good or bad. Sharing moments together good or bad. lol. It's just I thought what that couple had was special. And that's what I want, something special.
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Top 50 - Last.FM [Apr. 3rd, 2009|11:13 am]
This is late, but like I promised since 3 months past I will be posting the Artist, Tracks and even adding Albums that I have played the most in the past three months. I hope you guys enjoy my sporadic music taste :)

Top 50 Artist

1. Daphne Loves Derby
2. The Starting Line
3. Empires
4. Acceptance
5. The Fray
6. This Providence
7. Rookie of the Year
8. Bayside
9. Minus The Bear
10. Death Cab for Cutie
11. Anthony Green
12. Owl City
13. Fall Out Boy
14. Eisley
15. Valencia
16. The Killers
17. Portugal. The Man
18. nevershoutnever!
19. Broadway
20. Emarosa
21. The All-American Rejects
22. Kings of Leon
23. Jimmy Eat World
24. Silversun Pickups
25. Houston Calls
26. All Time Low
27. Four Year Strong
28. The Secret Handshake
29. The Gaslight Anthem
30. A Day To Remember
31. Breathe Carolina
32. Secondhand Serenade
33. Dropout Year
34. Before Their Eyes
35. Saves The Day
36. Augustana
37. Attack Attack
38. Tegan and Sara
39. Forever the Sickest Kids
40. Circa Survive
41. The Audition
42. Cobra Starship
43. The Spill Canvas
44. Say Anything
45. Scary Kids Scaring Kids
46. Hellogoodbye
47. Northstar
48. The Strokes
49. Dance Gavin Dance
50. Just Surrender

Top 50 Tracks

1. No One Is Convinced - Daphne Loves Derby
2. Iron and Backseat - Daphne Loves Derby
3. Baby Girl - Anthony Green
4. The Prom Queen Has No Friends - Broadway
5. The Letter - Acceptance
6. Cue The Sun! - Daphne Loves Derby
7. Ready - The Starting Line
8. All Mine - Portugal. The Man
9. Love & Mercy - Daphne Loves Derby
10. Springtime Out the Van Window - Anthony Green
11. She Loves Me So - Anthony Green
12. Are Two Chords Enough, Dear? - Daphne Loves Derby
13. Stranger, You and I - Daphne Loves Derby
14. Marching Band Intro - Daphne Loves Derby
15. That's Our Hero Shot - Daphne Loves Derby
16. Hello Color Red - Daphne Loves Derby
17. Bedroom Talk - The Starting Line
18. Miniature Christmas Tree - Daphne Loves Derby
19. Hello Seattle - Owl City
20. Throwin' Shapes - Minus The Bear
21. Take Cover - Acceptance
22. To Struggle With Light Colors - Daphne Loves Derby
23. Glory/Us - Acceptance
24. Heads or Tails? Real or Not - Emarosa
25. Artistic Licence - The Starting Line
26. She's My Winona - Fall Out Boy
27. So Contagious - Acceptance
28. Under the Bright Lights - Empires
29. Photography - The Starting Line
30. Different - Acceptance
31. Best Wishes - This Providence
32. Permanent - Acceptance
33. To Kill This - This Providence
34. This Conversation Is Over - Acceptance
35. In the Cold - Acceptance
36. Montauk - Bayside
37. Breathless - Acceptance
38. How's It Going To End? - Daphne Loves Derby
39. The Best Part About It Honey - Daphne Loves Derby
40. Well Versed In the Ways of the World - This Providence
41. All Night Long - Empires
42. My Ocean - Rookie of the Year
43. Spit the Dark - Empires
44. Created - Portugal. The Man
45. Over You - Acceptance
46. In Too Far - Acceptance
47. Certain Words in Uncertain Time - This Providence
48. Just Like We Do - Eisley
49. Truth and Reconciliation - This Providence
50. Everyday - This Providence

Top 50 Albums

1. Goodnight, Witness Light - Daphne Loves Derby
2. Howl - Empires
3. Phantoms - Acceptance
4. Based on a True Story - The Starting Line
5. Our Worlds Divorce - This Providence
6. Sweet Attention - Rookie of the Year
7. How To Save a Life - The Fray
8. Daphne Loves Derby - Daphne Loves Derby
9. Avalon - Anthony Green
10. Transatlanticism - Death Cab For Cutie
11. Room Noises - Eisley
12. Folie A Deux - Fall Out Boy
13. We All Need a Reason - Valencia
14. Direction - The Starting Line
15. Of June - Owl City
16. Hot Fuss - The Killers
17. Planet of Ice - Minus The Bear
18. Menos El Oso - Minus The Bear
19. Maybe I'm Dreaming - Owl City
20. Censored Colors - Portugal. The Man
21. Relativity - Emarosa
22. Bayside - Bayside
23. The Walking Wounded - Bayside
24. A Collection of Short Stories - Houston Calls
25. Say It Like You Mean It - The Starting Line
26. Me & My Uke - nevershoutnever!
27. Carnavus - Silversun Pickups
28. One Full Year - The Secret Handshake
29. The '59 Sound - The Gaslight Anthem
30. Homesick - A Day To Remember
31. This Could Be a Possibility - Valencia
32. Before Their Eyes - Before Their Eyes
33. Rise or Die Trying - Four Year Strong
34. Best Friends for Never - Dropout Year
35. All the Stars and Boulevards - Augustana
36. It's Classy, Not Classic - Breathe Carolina
37. The Yippee Ep - nevershoutnever!
38. Shudder - Bayside
39. Someday Came Suddenly - Attack Attack
40. The All-American Rejects - The All-American Rejects
41. Sirens and Condolences - Bayside
42. Only By the Night - Kings of Leon
43. Stay What You Are - Saves the Day
44. So Wrong, It's Right - All Time Low
45. One Fell Swoop - The Spill Canvas
46. Futures - Jimmy Eat World
47. Bleed American - Jimmy Eat World
48. Pollyanna - Northstar
49. Move Along - The All-American Rejects
50. The Con - Tegan and Sara
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