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Run For the Door and Never Look Back [May. 6th, 2009|01:18 pm]
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I need a break. I've exhausted myself over the most stupidest thing in the world. Maybe I did over analyze everything. Maybe I didn't. All I know is that I had a great time at The Status show. I wanted to hang out a little bit afterwards but I was so exhausted from earlier in the day and I didn't eat anything since early afternoon so I had to leave and rejuvenate myself.
There were a good 20 people max at the show. Had a great time, met the guys who are all extremely nice. And got myself a really cool dinosaur "The Status" shirt and called it a day.

That night showed how awkward and corney I actually am. Ugh, I guess that's me. I'll try to fix it but I'm not sure how successful I'll be.

I was just talking to my mom about going to school in September for Accouting. My first love is writing but I don't think I can find a decent job that will support Regular Pioneering and work part-time on top of that. And if I was to write I would want to write for the music business. Angel said I should go to school to be a tour manager but that is most definitely not going to support pioneering at all. I would love it though. I have to be realistic with my circumstances.
I like numbers so accounting it is.

I really need to get myself back to what I use to be. I use to study for my meetings on a regular basis. I commented at every meeting. I kept my room clean and spotless at one point. I was more than happy to help others and be out in service. But, now I'm just a bum. All I want to do is stay inside and go on the internet(which gets so boring after a while). Television sucks. Movies can only keep me occupied for so long. I need a hobby or something. I need to do something productive cause this sitting around feeling sorry for myself isn't working anymore. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of myself and how I allowed myself to get like this. Starting this week that is changing. I think I'm going to go a a bit of a hiatis from the internet a bit. I need this break. Maybe I can reevaluate what I want to do and pick up a hobby or something. Read a book. Get back to studying for the meetings and preparing for the ministry. Also going back to keeping my room clean. Maybe I'll redecorate it for once!

So this is goodbye for a little bit. Thanks for reading and the comments! I always appreciate it!

<3 Nina
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