|Mother Make Me Gold Again
||[May. 3rd, 2009|08:50 pm]
|||||Dear and the Headlights||]|
Really strange things have been happening in the past couple of days.
I honestly don't want to go into full detail cause it will take a good hour to write. I just noticed (and I know its not all in my head) that someone likes me. I know, I can tell. I never met this guy before and I...ugh, I don't know, he seems like a really nice guy! And I'm not making this post to bash anyone or make up something that isn't true(that is what wikipedia is for, lol). I'm kidding but I'm trying to make this not so serious. Well, needless to say I was quite shocked. Flattered at the same time but still I NEVER MET HIM BEFORE! I guess you really don't need to? Everyone I ever seriously liked I met first hand. But, I don't know maybe things don't work that way sometimes.
Anyway, I asked someone else what I should know about them. Not trying to find any dirt just out of curiosity and that is what I usually do if I find out someone is interested in me. I honestly don't feel there is anything wrong with that. And they say "He's a great American"......SERIOUSLY! I feel like he totally was laughing at me and not taking the question seriously at all. Maybe he was just playing around with me or didn't want to give any info out about the person but still, I just was so irritated. It was sooo vague. There are a lot of people who are considered "great Americans" and are complete jerks.
Then on the other hand I feel like a fool for asking the question and sort of embarrassed. I'm just so confused now. I don't know how I'm feeling anymore. Its a mixture of irritation, embarrassment and confusion. At the moment, I feel stupid.
I know girls take things that guys say or do and read into it too much. And we do, I will be the first one to say that we do cause I definitely know that I do. But, I don't think I'm reading into it too much. I don't. All I want is a legit answer.
Anyway. I have a year plan. I am soooo close to getting rid of debt that I'm just jumping for joy at the moment! I never ever knew it would be so easy. What is not easy is that I don't have a car at the moment. So, I'm hoping this month that will happen. I feel that this past month has been preparing me for Seattle and I don't know if I like it very much! I'm trying to stay positive about my move but I'm like "I can't take the rain!!!" Maybe when I visit I will feel differently.
Bamboozle didn't happen! Again. For the third year in a row!!!!
I cried, I couldn't even believe it. I was going to go with Danielle and her dad decides to say no at the last minute. I mean like the day before. But, I didn't hear an actual no until I logged on to twitter. I woke up all happy and excited Friday and saw Danielle's tweet and basically freaked out! I'm sorry! That was wrong of me!
Also, I really need to get my head back into preparing better for the meetings and service. I just feel like I'm going nowhere. Wednesday, I woke up aching from head to toe and could barely get out of bed. Stayed home from service to rejuvinate myself. I'm still aching. I don't know whats going on with me. I know one thing, I have been drinking wayyyy too much coffee. I literally get the shakes if I don't have a second cup in the afternoon. It's bad. Really bad. I just can't stop. Plus, I been very anxious lately which hasn't been helping with my cravings.
So, thats what has going on through this crazy brian of mine. This became way more longer than expected.